P.S. Please don't worry about me, I'm sure all will be well soon enough.
Betsy
Friday, September 17, 2010
Frustrated
Yesterday morning, I had an appointment with a Chiropractor. My back has been sore for quite a while (especially since our move.... lots of heavy boxes). Then last week, I moved just right while picking up Beckham and finally created an actual "injury." I yelled to Brad to come get Beckham, and then laid on the ground trying to be still. For the next 2 days I moved very carefully, and even had friends help me with Beckham. Then gradually I felt better, or at least tolerable. Tuesday of this week I was experiencing some different pain and muscle tightness, I realized that things weren't getting better, and came to the conclusion that it was time to see a doctor about it. So, the chiropractor it was. Driving down, I felt very relieved and almost excited that I had this appointment and he was going to fix me. When I got there, and started doing some flexibility tests, I began to realize just how limited my mobility is, and how I couldn't do really basic things like lay flat on the table or arch my back backwards without pain. As I talked to my doctor at the end, I realized that this injury is going to be around for a while, and if I'm not careful, I could have problems the rest of my life (Oh please don't let that happen). That is when I broke down, became frustrated, disappointed. Why is it so hard to be told that you have to slow down? That you can't do everything you want to do? Why can't I just think, it's fine, I'll rest today, and get that done tomorrow (or next month)? Right now, as I type this, I'm feeling weepy, and disappointed. My back feels sore about like it did before my appointment, but much more flexible. Here's to hoping that I can figure out a way to enjoy the activities I CAN do. And that in the end I will feel normal again.
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I have faith in you! You'll find a way to get better. Hang in there until you do!
Oh Betz!! I'm so sorry your back hurts! Back pain is the worst and can be so debilitating--- especially to an active energetic woman like yourself. Over 3 years ago, I was diagnosed with a moderate-to-severe herniated disc in the L5, S1 joint--- it was horrible, Betsy . . . so I know how you feel!! But the only reason I'm even mentioning my previous back pain is to let you know that you can and that you WILL get better! I am recovered now, even when doctors told me to expect to never live again the way I had before the injury. Don't lose hope if they tell you the same thing they told me!! I was told by 3 different back specialists that I would need to undergo back surgery and have my back fused together. I was also told that I should not have children since pregnancy would ruin my back for good. And now, not any of that has happened. It wasn't a chiropractor that got me better either--- so if this chiropractor doesn't work for you . . .don't give up! All it means is that chiropractic care isn't the solution for your back. No matter what doctors tell you--- your body has an incredible capacity to heal . . .you just gotta find the right remedy to allow the healing to take place. If you get frustrated or down again--- just give me a call or send me an email. You'll get through this--- and since I've been there, I'd love to be a listening ear or a sounding board for you. And, I know TONS of different remedies to try out there that so many back sufferers overlook. I love ya and hang in there. You really can get better.
Hang in there things do get better as they get older. I feel like you somedays I think whoever is a Mom does! Hope your back feels better too!
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